Wise Whys

  The ‘Why’ questions used to be cute. Well to a point, if I’m totally honest. I wasn’t very good with the ‘why’ response to my tenth answer on questions about the universe and other complicated things. In those discussions I felt as if I was slipping on a downward spiral into a pit of futility….

‘Can a mortal ask questions which God finds unanswerable?’

On Sunday morning, right at the end of the service, I was overcome with tearfilled anger towards God. During prayer another congregant was giving thanks for some of the elderly who have recently recovered from illness and surgery. It was the words “You are a God who heals” that got me. I do know He…

From Darkness into Light

It happened again last night and it starts like this: Drifting off into a dream patch I am gripped by a vivid image and with a swooping gut sensation I’m dragged into wakefulness. Then the worst of the stuff in my head starts to ooze to the surface. Thoughts blup up in ever increasing black ugly bubbles. The errupting fumes wend…

Unspeakable grief – when our words fail: The Word.

It has been six weeks since my previous post and that’s because words lost all meaning when my sister called me to tell me there was no more hope for her little boy.  Then the sounds and words that came from my mouth are not ones I can rewrite. There is nothing that anyone can…

Another year older, another year wiser?

Christmas – a time of reflection, family, faith and a baby. I was thinking how a lot happens in 365 days and it made me wonder just how many babies are born each year. (Two arrived to two of my siblings so they are in part responsible). I did a little bit of an online…

The Waiting Game

I will fear no evil, for you are with me. Psalm 23 Such a simple phrase and so easy to say but Oh so very difficult to put into practice. Each time I contact my sister to get updates on my young nephew in ICU my heart feels like it is being squeezed tight and all…

Deep despair, deeper grace.

There are some nights when sleep eludes me and the thoughts of all I’ve left undone enlarge themselves until the pressure of their weight heats me up to the point that I have to throw off my bedclothes. Then in the bathroom I run the cold tap ’til it’s icy and drink straight from the spout. Last…

What Happens Next?

WARNING! Content may cause offense to some of my friends. This one really made me think. Do you see yourself as this: (date) – (date) and that’s all? Is your entire existence summed up in a beginning, a middle and an end so best you make the most of the middle? This past summer our family…

Ahh Women!

Have you ever heard of Mitochondrial DNA (mtDNA) or the ‘Eve Gene’? This is a tiny piece of DNA which is passed down from mothers only and is traceable back through the generations along the female line. Men are unable to pass it on to their children as it resides in the sperm and dies out…

Human Doing or Human Being?

Are you a human doing or a human being? Do you do, or do you be? Dobedobedobedo (not original). How much do you define yourself by who you are and what drives and motivates you, what your core principles and beliefs are OR by what you do, your deeds and how you treat others? I don’t think there is any…

Abide With Me

When you have the choice, you usually choose to live with the people you like the best and even love the most (although that’s not always the same thing). I did anyway, of course! Out of all the men in the world I picked to marry the one who is my husband. Not because I looked at…